Does anyone else have this problem? I think people refer to it as co-dependency. I refer to it as my own ego problem. I just need to be needed, need to feel important. When I’m not needed, I start to question my purpose, which only leads to unnecessary anxiety.
Because when it comes down to it, we’re all needed in some way or another. The problem we struggle with is that it’s just not consistent. And thank goodness for that, really, because if it was consistent, we’d all burn out and be crabby.
And if you’re like me, you constantly create situations where you’re needed so you feed that weird need, and thus end up perpetually busy, burnt out, and yes, crabby. This is a vicious cycle.
The hard part in breaking that pattern is trusting in love, again. I need to know that I matter to someone. And maybe I do! For an hour.
I need to trust that this is OK, that I will be needed again in time, and that for the space of time I’m NOT needed, that I’m still important and worthwhile anyway.
Because maybe the person who needs me the most right at that moment, is me.